Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Memorial for Max in Newcastle

On Wednesday 11 October Newcastle University held an event in memory of Max. It was good to see so many people there, friends who are still studying there, others who have already graduated, friends from other universities who Max met in Cadiz, friends from London, and members of staff from the School of Modern Languages.

Dr Elizabeth Andersen, Head of the School, introduced the speakers. Four of Max's fellow Spanish students paid very warm tributes to him. They were Charlotte China, Laura Taggart, Tim Wynn-Jones, and Steff Doudo from Northumbria University and Cadiz. One of his teachers, Dr Vanessa Knights, spoke about Max and read a very moving Spanish poem by an author he had studied, already on this blog. Seamus also spoke about Max's experience at the University, and thanked the staff and students for their friendship and support. Prof. Máire Cross then announced a new prize which the school will award in Max's name each year, for a piece of writing about the year abroad. Music was played on the harp as we came in and during the ceremony, by Eleanor Rutherford, a language and music student.

At the end we walked past the lime tree which has been dedicated to Max. It stands just outside the language department. It is a pretty, healthy-looking tree which will flourish for a long time to come. The inscription gives Max's name and dates and describes him as "language student and footballer, a good friend, missed by many". We then had tea in the refectory and enjoyed being able to talk to so many of Max's friends.

As Seamus said in his speech, we are so grateful for all the time and thought that Dr Andersen, the Year Abroad team, and staff of the school have put into remembering Max at the University, and to Max's fellow students for being such good friends to him.

Victoria




If you click on the photo you should be able to read the plaque

FOOTY IN NEWCASTLE: If I Have Seen Further It Is Because I Stood On The Shoulders Of A Giant

Max, The Lizard, Maximus, Gluteus Maximus, Thierry O’Connell:

In Newcastle, Max played in the world famous Henderson Hall FC from 2002 - 2005. I was in the year above Max and had, therefore, played with Charlie Green (our manager and goalie) and Chris (Gruff) the year before he arrived. Unfortunately, I had not been able to assist my learned colleagues in conducting the trials for the “new batch” of Hendersonites but had to trust that they would find some decent players. I was in for a big surprise. I had the pleasure of witnessing a special goal from Maximus (one of so many) against the University Reserves (bitter rivals/cry-offs) a week or so later. “Who’s the lanky fella upfront?”, I mumbled, just before the exquisite lob, effortlessly executed, left the goal keeper thinking he should’ve stayed in bed that day - one of those shots that that you watch in the air for half an hour before gravity takes over and guides it perfectly down the into the goal rippling the net on its way.. That was the moment I (and I presume, the rest of the team) began my affiliation with Max and his curls! I gave his curly head so much attention as my own mum used to say to me, “Don’t get your hair cut son, I like them and so will the girls” - like my football, however, my curls were nothing compared to Max’s….partly to do with the fact that mine were ginger, but mainly because he had so many more. So, Max got his curls stroked by me and the lads every time he scored. I’m very surprised he wasn’t bald by the end of the two seasons I had the pleasure of playing with him! He was our very own Thierry Henry, and when he wasn’t playing it had an adverse effect on all our games (I did try in vain on a few occasions to copy some of his moves on my own, but fell over myself most of the time).

As Max became blatantly the best player in our squad (a collection of very good players it has to be said), he began to show more of his character and the Max we all came to admire so much had arrived. Football, for me anyway, had become not just a day to work off the cigarettes, it had become a whole day event (in many cases this meant ‘the night before, then all day before and then all day and night after kick off’) twice weekly. Most of my own pals had left me to go abroad as they too were language students like Max, so I was a little isolated compared to previous years. This is one of the reasons I will always remember Max. He was a massive part of my university experience. Max’s abode was a bit of a mad house that resonated ‘party’, so with Max and the rest of the crew he lived with there, it was a perfect set up. It was the party house in the whole of Jesmond. It wasn’t just a party house, however, and Max and the others were happy to make you feel welcome whenever you visited, whether it be for a kick about in the street, or to watch countless episodes of 24, or just to chill out. I must say, we chilled out a lot, and this is what I preferred. Max always had time to sit and talk about loads of mad stuff. He was a philosopher which I admired, and thus conversations were always very topical. He was a good listener as well and always paid great attention to your opinions - when he could decipher the scouse prattle that is - before he contributed with his own. You could always guarantee as well that Max would still be there at the end of the night after a party or whatever when everyone else had gone home or to bed. One of the most frequent one-to-one conversations I used to have with him (purposely trying my best to drum it home to him) was basically me asking him, “Why on Earth are you not playing professional football mate??!”, to which Max would always reply with genuine modesty, “D’ya really think I’m good enough, Scouse??”, to which I’d reply, “Are you taking the piss mate?!!”…….although - having played against his boys in Kentish Town the day after Max’s funeral - I have to say, I’m not a bit surprised he had ridiculously high standards!

A memory of Max I hold dear to me was one Christmas when he was in his house in Newcastle on his own (bar Mikey). I just so happened to be in the same boat as Max that holiday and was also alone in my own gaff. Max was strapped for cash at that moment and I too was waiting for some student loan to clear in my account. Max, being his lovably spontaneous self, exclaimed, “Scouse! If my credit card clears today, I’ll lend you some money and [NOT, ‘do you want to go out?’] we’re going out tonight!”, which it did, which he did, which we did! Although I wasn’t Max’ bestest mate in the whole world, I had absolutely no misgivings about going out on the toon with him, nor he with me. I felt like I’d known Max for such a long time and although it was just me and him, it would be a top top night. I did, although I think I recall him pulling a really big girl……at least he pulled though!

Even at the end of my time at Newcastle, Max still found the time (and James also) to invite me to London “….whenever you want….you can stay at mine…”, which I deeply regret to this very day as I virtually hadn’t seen of my mates from Uni after I left, until Max’ funeral - this amounts to two years! This angers me greatly, and I have now vowed to change my aloof existence post-Uni. The fact that Max had such an impact on mine and everybody’s lives whether team mate, best mate, or uni-lecturer, to name only a few categories, is testament to his massive character. I can only imagine for the people who knew and loved him for many many more years than I did, what an unbelievably enormous loss it will be for them and my deepest sympathies and thoughts are forever with you all. I expected nothing less from the funeral and, from the stories I listened to from his friends and family (not to mention the endless entries on his blog), I came to the conclusion that Max, even in his painfully short life, had achieved so much and was already a huge success. I have to say that Max was a giant in so many ways and if in the two years I knew him I saw further, it is because I stood on the shoulders of a giant! Max, I will remember you whenever I play football, and for the rest of my life. In life but also, tragically, in death, the biggest lesson of all which you have taught me is that life should be lived to the fullest no matter who you are or where you’re from. Without grudges, it should be lived with a smile on your face and a swagger of confidence and warmth which you so evidently had in frightening abundance. God bless you mate and all your loved ones, and thank you for being you in the two years I had the absolute pleasure of knowing you! I’m sure I will see you one day again bruv, but until then you will be sorely missed by everyone you knew, including the Henderson boys!

From: Michael Casey - or as Max sometimes preferred (in a cockney accent), “Oi, Scouser!”, “Scouse!”, “Mic!”

[I wrote the above the day after Max funeral and have been dithering since then looking for the statistics that Max, James, and Eddie produced after my final season in Newcastle playing football. Due to a house move things have been in the air a bit but I know I have then somewhere and will post them as soon as I find them. I can tell everybody now though that Max was top of the goal scoring lists and man-of-the-match lists for both Saturday and Wednesday leagues]

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Emailing a post to the blog

Spam emails have started appearing on the blog. A spammer must have picked up the email address 'emailtomaxoconnellblog.textonly@blogger.com'.

To deal with that I have changed the blog so that email posts don't go up immediately you send them, but have to be vetted by me. When you email a post to the blog [now to 'emailtomaxoconnellblog.textbutnopics@blogger.com'] please copy it to me at 'maxoconnellblog@googlemail.com'. That will let me know that you have sent in a post and I shall go into the blog admin function and put it up.

I shall in any case look for email posts from time to time and put up the genuine ones.

Seamus

Thursday, October 12, 2006

In memoriam Max

Yesterday I returned from leave for what could have been a tremendously sad occasion, the memorial event for Max. Max's life was tragically cut short during his year abroad in Cadiz and we gathered to remember him and to dedicate a tree to his memory. Friends and family told of a young man, full of life and promise, who brightened the lives of those around him with his enthusiasm, charisma, genuine interest in others, effortless cool and joie de vivre. A life well lived.

As his teacher I was invited to say a few words. Max may not have been our most conscientious student but he certainly made seminars animated. He did not sit on the sidelines, he took part.

Our section chose a poem put forward by another colleague who also taught Max, Patricia Oliart, who kindly provided the paraphrase into English too. The poem is by the Uruguayan author Mario Benedetti, an author Max studied with us. Benedetti is full of passion, compassion and love for humanity with all its weaknesses and strengths.

Chau número tres
Mario Benedetti

This poem is a farewell. About someone leaving his loved ones with their lives, work, people, surroundings, joys, hopes and fears, and without him. Without his questions or answers, without his doubts, without his childlike qualities, but also without his wisdom. But he promises that he is not abandoning them as he will be in unexpected places keeping them company: in an old tree, in children's smiles, in the shadows and in their dreams, where he hopes they will be able to look each other in the eyes.

Te dejo con tu vida
Tu trabajo
Tu gente
Con tus puestas de sol
Y tus amaneceres
Sembrando tu confianza
Te dejo junto al mundo
Derrotando imposibles
Segura sin seguro
Te dejo frente al mar
Descifrándote a solas
Sin mi pregunta a ciegas
Sin mi respuesta rota
Te dejo sin mis dudas
Pobres y malheridas
Sin mis inmadureces
Sin mi veteranía
Pero tampoco creas
A pie juntillas todo
No creas, nunca creas
Este falso abandono
Estaré donde menos lo esperes
Por ejemplo en un arbol añoso
de oscuros cabeceos
Estaré en un lejano horizonte sin horas
En la huella del tacto
En tu sombra y mi sombra
Estaré repartido en cuatro o cinco pibes
De esos que vos mirás
Y enseguida te siguen
Y ojalá pueda estar
De tu sueño en la red
Esperando tus ojos
Y mirándote

Dr Vanessa Knights

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

TONIGHT (9.10.06)

Dear Max,

Tonight I couldn't sleep at all
So instead I read... ate... smoked...
Like banging my head against a wall
Until upon my tears I choked

A song played on the radio
You know the song, One Sweet Day
"I know you're shining down on me
from Heaven,"
is what the words say

Are you Max? Are you up there?
I looked for you in the deep, dark sky
Tonight, as I sat beneath the stars
All alone, my tears and I

Why is it so Max? WHY IS IT SO?
This truth which, from now on, always will be
That we are all here but you are all gone
That life is much harder but death so easy

...Another song played on the radio
"I'll try to love again but baby I know
the first cut is the deepest"
and you
Have cut me so deep I don't know what to do

I don't want to keep growing older without you
I don't want to fall in love when you can't
But I know I must savour the flavour of living
I just don't want to forget you. I promise, I shan't

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Happy Birthday Max

Been thinking of this day coming for quite a while now, always remember Max's birthday as it's 1 month and 1 day after mine.

I woke up this morning to the thought and sight of Max, I have a photo of Max and Oli in World Headquarters (surprise surprise). God knows what night it is on, but Max has his arm around Oli, eyes closed, big smile on his face. Typical, really enjoying himself, and says a lot because it really could be any one of hundreds of nights out in Newcastle, all of which merged together into one. Its the only photo or decoration I have in my room since the wallpaper got changed, I've not bothered putting any up but since I found that I put it up, I look at it and think of Max all the time, obviously today more than others.

Today will be a hard day for all, I'm not going to be able to make it down to London today so would like to use this to send my love to all. I'm sure today will be taken in the spirit of rejoicing Max's life, and will be good for everyone to be together. I wish I could be there today, but I will see you all in Newcastle next week.

Max - Happy Birthday mate, you'll never ever be forgotten.

Ku

From Jo Smithson, in Australia

I have been thinking about Max a lot today, as it's his birthday. I'm in Australia at the moment so I will miss the memorial in Newcastle, which is such a shame.

I spent two of Max's birthday's with him, one at his houseparty in 2nd year and the other at his party at World Head Quarters (where i remember he got very overexcited/emotional that me and my housemates had bought him a card then prompty proceeded to loose it in the chaos of the party and apologise to us twenty million times!!!).

Max was such a great guy, words can't really express it, I miss him.

Jo Smithson