For Max

Dear Max,

It has taken me a while to write this because, to tell you the truth I really haven't been able to face up to it. But today I remembered a conversation me and you had at mine and Owens birthday party on January 7th, when we promised each other we would stop putting things off, that we would keep emailing, keep calling when you were back in London and make sure we would see each other. Chloe and I always wanted to live in Queens Park just so we could be closer to you lot and coz it was so bloody hard getting you out of da area ya na!!! Shit babe, I really miss you. I have been seeing the boys but wish it could be more often, people have started to get on with their lives but now you are with us everyday and every moment. I wish I told you how much I loved you, from the moment you kissed me in the library at hampstead to arguing with you in Spanish because you always knew how to wind me up, to you and Rosie being so in love, I have cherished and enjoyed being your friend. Memories come back to me at times I don't expect and I wish I could freeze them, step in and get a great big hug from you, a warm neck breaking hug. I will never stop celebrating you darling, you have made such an effect on all the lives you have been part of, and not many people can say that.

I LOVE YOU from elena smellena!!

Els xxx