Wishes

Victoria and Seamus,

I just wanted to thank you for a wonderful evening on Sunday. It was a really special one this year and I'm missing Max terribly.

He has been with me strongly over the past weeks in the lead up to some big changes in my life that should mean great things. He would always have been there to remind me not to be cocky, but don't sacrifice any of my energy of fearlessness, and keep pushing.

If you want to add this to the blog i'd be ok with that but it was more of a message I wanted to send to you.

You have shown unbelievable spirit and devotion to your everyone in repeating these hard occasions. I know its probably a warming feeling to know that we all want to share these times with you so desperately, but the strength you have shown over the years is truly and inspiration and something I have come to rely on. I feel safe in your home and honoured to be part of the gatherings. Although you (both) and I never really had a relationship while Max was with us, I hope you realise that distance is testament to our friendship, which was one of true adolescent mischief and tom-foolery. It was all about absolute fun. It was all about love.

Someone told me before they passed away two years ago (another friend), that in true times of reflection and adversity, to turn to those around you is the hardest but yet most rewarding thing one can do, rather than looking to one's self for the solution. I still turn to Max for things, and I know his/our crew in the area will always be there for me. You have helped keep that together, and you have created a glue that continues to bond us. Its so important.

We are entering an age where our connections to each other are more powerful and important than ever, and strength alone cannot support us. I want you to know that I am here absolutely for you and your family should you ever wish or need me around, and thank you for helping me deal with the loss of such a great friend.

I cannot believe it has been 6 years. He still has more of an impact and heart warming influence on me than most people will ever be capable.

With all my love.

Jacob.

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Jacob Tomkins